7.10.2007

burnout

i need a break.

i've come to realize that bliss comes in moments when i'm not at work, and don't have to worry about going to work for at least 48 hours. but as soon as i know i need to go back...

he's got a hell of a battle ahead of him.
there are no words i know that can convey how much i love him.
i want him to be ok.
but my ok and god's ok might be very different.

i'm tired of money issues.

i'm tired of working so hard at love that i forget how to play at it.

i feel like i haven't truly relaxed in weeks. the baths and prayers aren't working like they used to.

i don't want to run away from my problems.
i want time and space to regroup so i'll have the strength to face them head on.

i want to feel at peace.
i want to breathe.

2 comments:

PretaMulatta said...

'i'm tired of working so hard at love that i forget how to play at it.'

sending u some energy of little giggling children, so u'll remember how easy it is 2 play.

snake woman, she who hears said...

i've gotten to hang out with my godson a little bit lately...children are definitely wonderful to be around.

and i've got some time off coming...

but for now i'm just limping towards the weekend...