7.02.2007

possibilities

i've had several conversations lately about children...how someone's babies were doing, how they're growing, and when i'm going to have some of my own.

most of my life i've been pretty ambiguous about the prospect of being a mother. my mother's family is not what anyone would call prolific. it's never been impressed upon me that i must have children. it's a choice that i've been taught to treat with the utmost care, esteem, and respect. you don't just have babies just to have them, and you don't have them young if you can help it.

that said, something in me fully awakened today.

i want a baby.
i want to experience gestation, creation.
facilitate the entry of a new/old soul.

it's like...there's a room in the center of my body that wasn't there before. i want to decorate it with flowers and beautiful colors, soft light and sweet words.

i want to be full of life and love and possibilities--not that i'm lacking that, but to share those things with the universe in the process of developing a human being...

wow.

6 comments:

PretaMulatta said...

welcome into the coven. the want 4 it will only stir like a crazy tempest when u're around babies... even babies u dont know on the street will begin reaching out 2 u from their strollers... making eye contact with u like THEY KNOW.

yeah. i totally understand.

snake woman, she who hears said...

yeah. kids/babies look at me funny ALL the time now.

a couple of weeks ago, my godson looks at me out of the blue and goes, "when are you gonna have a baby?"

*blink*

lol.

secret squirrel jenkins said...

*holding out until age 30*
at least, i'm trying. because as of late there's this absurd roar inside my head that demands that i go find the right penis at the right time...

mindful said...

glad someone's feeling it, and professing those feelings as well...

the baby bug has been passing me by lately, and I honestly cannot say that I blame it.

snake woman, she who hears said...

tre: i wasn't going to write about it, but...i had to. i've been praying on it and i just had to acknowledge it.

'nay: ME TOO! lol.

Dejan said...

funny...there have been a plethora of pregnant women the past couple of years. like you, last year i was being seduced both by the babies in pregnant women's wombs (i mean i'd literally flirt with or be flirted with by ripe, ready to drop pregnant strangers, whilst shopping or out or whatever), or by new mothers. they were manifesting in my hologram everywhere. i had to have a talk with the universe and the unseen soul that was trying to incarnate...or soemthing. at 40, with two damn near grown ones, this wouldn't be a light decision. the point was though, that this must be some kind of fertility boom. i don't know why, but lots of souls coming down the past couple of years. don't know why, exactly, but they're coming. perhaps to anchor some energy...crystals and such. anyhow...good luck with moving towards motherhood. love...