a few nights ago, someone posted Alexyss Tylor's latest on tumblr and i went ahead and watched. after that, i happened to find a Vice magazine piece where she told a bit more of her story.
now, i have a couple of issues with her--similar to the ones i have with Kola Boof, minus the twitter experience--but i also have a new-found respect. she's a survivor. i don't always dig the way she gets the word out, but i understand that she speaks to realities i have not lived and pains i do not know.
i've noticed that many women labeled "crazy" or "wild" carry an abundance of Dark Goddess energy. Her names are many: Kali, Nana Buluku, Pomba Gira, Pele, Maman Brigitte, Iyaami, Ezili Je Rouge, Sekhmet. all-seeing eye havin, fire-spittin, ass kickin and name takin Divinity. the Mama that brought you in and will take you out.
in this incarnation, my path stresses peace, light and balance, but i am aware that many sistas choose differently. i can hardly blame them; the help and privilege i've been afforded don't come to all of us.
when tragedy strikes or for those born into or out of pain, despair, and struggle, the light doesn't always make it through. sometimes the darkness comes first, and it comes strongest.
using the dark to heal is dangerous; it is the underworld journey, lonely and fierce. the light is safer, calmer, sweeter. but no matter the road, deep healing always carries the risk of no return. you can get lost in the dark, struggling against your own demons. you can go too far into the light, becoming neglectful and drifting into the next world before your time.
only those who remain on the surface forget the sanctity of balance.
so to Kola, Alexyss and others i say: there but for the grace of God/dess go i.
it's not an endorsement, or full agreement. i have my reasons for sticking to my way, as they do. still, i know that my way is only a way, not the way, and i'm not gonna reach everyone with it.
this is a recognition. an understanding.
i'm in my lane, they're in theirs, but we're all on the highway to the same destination: the empowerment of our sistas and the reemergence of Goddesshood.