there are so many things rattling around in my brain.
like this. and how i still can't bring myself to tell my mother about it.
how i'm struggling to reconnect with my womb.
how it brought he & i together for a brief, shining moment--and how that moment didn't last.
how much my life has changed. and how much it hasn't. how the stagnation sticks in my throat like peanut butter.
how desperate i can be to feel loved sometimes.
how part of me seems to like being kinda fked up every now and then.
and how i'm gonna be 30 soon...