the weekend was slightly annoying.
honey was off somewhere playing emcee while i was either bored, uncomfortable, or just plain lonely.
i'm still stalled creatively.
i wrote a prayer that i meant to take to the river when i went to odunde, but we didn't make it to the procession. instead, i put the prayer with oshun's things, fully intending to do the work at home...now i can't even remember to light the candle...my other altar's remained dark for god knows how long.
i feel like i'm being held back, and i don't quite know how, why, or by what.
i'm gonna have to rewrite that prayer. or, even better, write down my fears/obstacles and get those out of the way first. then go back to that prayer.
i need to blow off some steam. but i feel like i have no outlets whatsoever.
what the hell is wrong with me?
this will probably all pass once my cycle starts. it usually does.
then again, maybe not. who knows. i really can't even articulate what the hell's going on with me lately. i just know i want to feel normal again. happy. myself. something.
at least i cooked dinner...