a few years ago, i consciously began the process of synthesizing the parts of myself i'd either scattered far and wide, or pushed into obscurity.
many of us split ourselves this way, for various reasons. for me, there were times when this scattering happened in the name of protection, but more often it was simply to fit in, feel normal {whatever that is}.
in a general sense, some folks become aware of these splits, then try to gather in the disparate parts. others allow the soul-shards to wander--at best never fully actualizing their full potential; at worst, fearing and hating the manifestation of those aspects in others. sometimes people will even project that hatred outward.
in any case, if you've been reading along for awhile, you know how often i've used this space to speak on the process of re-integrating my self back to myself.
during my morning prayers, i cried--tears of frustration, longing, mourning. but those tears made way for an important realization: today, i'm probably more fully integrated than i've been since childhood. i still have moments when i wonder how i'll be received, but i no longer fear myself or my power.
i took a deep breath and stood securely in the knowing that people, places, and circumstances of my life always adjust to reflect my state of being. as long as i follow the patterns and heed the signs, things run smoothly. there is no reason for this phase to be any different.
gotta keep moving...
[again]
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