since i wrote this, i've been thinking...
intially, i thought giving voice to that milestone would throw me into lamentations, but it actually gave me a rush. it was empowering to acknowledge my triumphs as a non-tragic, single woman.
this morning, a sistafriend presented an exercise that got me thinking about the year ahead. my heart raced as i shared dreams i've been keeping close to my heart--some i hadn't even put into words until that moment. as i crafted each sentence, i felt, deeply, that it was all completely possible and well within my grasp.
put another way, i'd been (un)consciously working, striving, crawling and struggling to get to the point where i could articulate that specific, blissful vision. i'm still buzzing from it.
this energy, this momentum wouldn't exist if i were still pouring myself into the energy trap my relationship had become, or allowing a less-than-optimal relationship to do the same thing.
i am absolutely certain that i cannot settle for less than real love, partnership, and reciprocity. period.
i'm looking forward to my future. now more than ever.